Stress Mounting Again!!!

I don't know how to put it but the monthly ritual of finding $$ to sustain this study centre is taking a toil on me yesterday.. 2 friends of mine came to the centre and commented that I have not done enough publicity to attract the students to come and study. One also claimed that I should have found and secure a group of people willing to commit themselves to this centre to study before even starting up.

I appreciate people who give me suggestions and ideas for improvement but the thing is that if the whole charade is to do blame-storming, then I don't think I need that. I don't know what I have not done enough in terms of publicity. I have given out flyers at Bukit Batok Sec, Millina Institute, Bukit Batok MRT; at each and every block of Bukit Batok West, now doing East part of Bukit Batok, what more can I do??? I am looking at the region of thousands of flyers given out, killing lots of trees in the process but no response (I cannot include the 2 who signed up as they were from my tuition and my GF's school respectively). Banner? How to have a banner when I can't be even sure whether my $$ is enough to even pay up everything this month??

In my opinion, the other is even more ridiculous.. Who is the right frame of mind would commit their $$ to a centre that is not even up and properly done??? Especially students, who don't really have a lot of $$ and a lot of chance to get good results. All they take is ONE look at the place for studying, decide if it is worth the $$ paid and make a decision. They can't wait.. Which brings me to the next point; (my 2 friends) suggesting that I CLOSE the centre so that my gals at the centre can spend more time out there giving out flyers...

I seriously don't belive in their theory that if these people are bon fide customers, they will call the number that I stick at the door, cos in my opinion, these prospective customers will JUST LOOK SOMEWHERE ELSE.. McDonalds is just downstairs, so the alternative may also jolly well be cheaper. I checked with one of my gal on this theory and it was proven right..

Sometimes I wonder; do I have to show the stress on my face so that people will know that I am actually very concerned about the situation and not as if I am 'bo chup' over this issue.. I don't know, I am not a person that will go around affecting other people's mood because of my problems but this seems to give people ( like my 2 friends ) impressions that I don't really care or am doing anything..

I don't know.. Is just that after my conversation with them, even though they are supposed to be concerned about the survival of this study centre, I think they have affected me emotionally, making me irrational and unable to think properly.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!